And so here I sit. In a room devoid of my belongings, no more baskets filled with colorful yarns and knitting projects, no more clothes squished into drawers that barely close, and no more “office space” that consisted of my computer with a tiny area for me to sit and edit. It’s weird. The no faking side of me feels weird. Leaving the room I spent a year and a half in, and the city I spent almost 5 years in.
I have heard every opinion under the sun on my decision. “You’re doing the right thing,” “you’re moving back home?!?,” “Good luck, I know you will do great,” and a whole slew of others including the look of “you are absolutely crazy for moving back home.” Do the negative people make me re-think my decision? For a quick second, yes. However, when I sit down and think about it, I know I am doing the right thing. I know I am. The opportunities I have up north far outweigh the opportunities I have in Savannah, not to mention there aren’t a ton of people my age left in Savannah. I guess that’s not the point though. I will miss the people I have met and grown close to here.
I will miss my Grandparents with all my heart, but I know I will see them again soon. What kills me the most is that I know how much it is killing them. It saddens me to hurt them, but they agree I am making the right choice, they just wish it wasn’t the right choice so I wouldn’t have to leave. Other then my grandparents, the other hard part is leaving the kids I have babysat for. I have watched some of these kids grow for the past 3-4 years, and leaving them is difficult. They (as well as their families) have become a part of my own family, and I love them as if they were part of my family.
So where does that leave me? Sad to leave, excited for what comes, and a little unsure about what the future will bring. What I do know is this, my time in Savannah has come to a close. My car is packed and in 14 short hours I will be making my way back North. Is it the right choice? Maybe. Maybe not. All I can say is that Savannah has been ready for me to leave for a while, and I have been ready to leave it. Maybe not ready to leave the people it contains, but in need of moving on. I will be back two to three times between now and mid July, so hopefully I will get to see everyone again!
Freshman Year:
Looking back, it’s amazing how much has happened in the last five years. From the friends I have made, the friends who have hurt me, the friends who have supported me through everything, an the friends I am still in touch with. It amazes me how much changes in during college and directly after. I am a completely different person now than I was when I entered college, and I like to think I am a better person than when I entered college. Leaving isn’t always easy, but it’s sometimes necessary.
i’m mostly bummed because i loved visiting charleston and savannah and now if i do it again, i won’t get to see you. ahhh, thank goodness for the interweb.
Best of luck! Best wishes! You always do the right thing when you think through your problems and align them to your values and principles. I don’t know the right or wrong answers to life..but I do know that if you follow your values & principles, you’re going to make far more right decisions than wrong ones.
Your bestest but never met before (kind of weird but really means well) on the interwebs buddy!
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Change is so refreshing for the soul. We are in the midst of packing and will be heading out in a little over a week and I SOOO echo so many of your sentiments. Hard to leave family, excited for what is waiting around the bend. But, like you said, it’s time. Looking forward to seeing what adventures lie on your horizon! (Nikitiger from Twitter)
We will miss you so much! Anne just said “why you lookin at Katie’s picture?” Can’t wait to see you this summer!
Now you know why adults always tell kids not to be in a rush to grow up. Welcome to the world of gray; black and white would be so easy. Adopt the philosophy that every day is a new beginning filled with promise, opportunity for growth and perhaps adventure. Savannah was another opportunity for your growth and talent and your next months will continue to help you become the special person we have always known you to be. I know three little people who will be happy to greet you. (Ooh, don’t tell Adam I said little people! Of course, in my head, Timmie is still a little one, too!!) Love ya!
Wishing you all the best in your adventure back “home”. Sounds like it is a great next step but I know it must be so hard to leave the grandparents. More reason to travel back south as much as possible. Safe travels to you!!
Moving on can be bittersweet. Wishing you all the best in the next steps of you life and career – I see big things ahead for you.
Alej-NYC can be VERY fun. I think you will need to visit there instead!
Michael-you are the best never met you but online you rock friend! Thanks!
Nicole-hopefully everything will work out for both of us!! We can complain to each other when things are hard!
Angela-Awww I will miss my Anne Boo!!! Give the girls hugs from me. I will let you know when I secure my flights so we can plan your session!
Mrs. Betty- oh how I wish the world was black and white! I definitely want my cake and be able to eat it to! Haha I wont tell Adam you said that, however his (ten? almost eleven?) year old self is way to old for my liking! I held him right when he came home from the hospital…he is making me feel old!
Sukhi-Thanks a ton!
Carolyn-Yes it is, but we both accomplished out big goal from wppi….so YAY US! Whoop Whoop! We will def do lunch soon! (ps-STILL can’t make it to T-Lackey at adorama even with the new date…boo!
Hope you have a great time up North!!! Keep blogging and keep up up to date! Sarah, Benn and Jack xx